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Chauncey Leon Mattocks to Gregg Leon Mattocks, letter, 20 November 1996

Source: Chauncey Leon Mattocks to Gregg Leon Mattocks, letter, 20 November 1996.

11-20-96
OCEAN PARK

Dear Gregg.

Since you̓re so hard to reach and I have such a hard time talking much on the phone, you̓re going to have to try “de-cyphering” my scribbling. Anyway. I kind of miss you, son and feel the need to “lay on you” a bit. I think that we came down her last Thursday and will return next Mon. 11-25. I have two doctor̓s appointments on Tues. and receive my second Chemo treatment Weds. I̓ll undoubtedly be pretty “puny” on Thanksgiving day.  (Probably most of the week.) Of course, my first doctor̓s appointment is with Dr. GESCHKE (sp?). My second is with a new doctor (to me.) He̓s a pulmonary specialist. hopefully he can make it a bit easier for me to breathe.  Actually, we were hoping that he would prescribe some “emergency” oxygen for me. Also I may check into applying for total dissability. This would increase our monthly income by nearly $200–. Also we̓re involved in a big Class action suit against Prudential Ins. Co., but I̓m not going to hold my breath on that one.

Mark just started trapping when the flooding hit, but he did manage to catch one raccoon and one beaver already. I think that was pretty good for a novice. Probably worth close to $5000. Maybe he̓ll be able to supplement his income pretty well there, after all.

Haven̓t talked to Ken for quite some time. Hope you have. Anyway, Frank and Dottie are having their regular Thanksgiving dinner and you and all of us are invited. Of course, Mum & I will be unable to attend and I wouldn̓t be too sure but what Mark just might have to work the day. I don̓t think that he knows yet. Anyway, I just wrote Frank & Dottie a fairly lengthy letter of apology and appreciation on our part. Also finished a 5 page “monologue” to brother, Carl, so, as a result I̓m pretty well “written-out.” It̓s 10:00 P.M. and Mum̓s been in bed for 2 hrs. already. Nana & I have just about worn her out. I̓ve been having “mucho” trouble sleeping, so I may be finishing this later on tonight.  I have a prescribed sleeping pill, but it just doesn̓t seem to work. (About 1½ -2 hrs. is all.) I will see if he can prescribe me something stronger when I see him Tuesday. Well, Later.

1:40 A.M. – So much for el sleeping pill tonight. I̓m afraid to take another with all these other chemicals in me. I̓ll probably end up in the old recliner, where I̓ll doze on & off. It helps though. Actually, I̓m also drinking warm milk, so this letter may become postponed again. Sorry, but I do hope so. Actually those damned slpg. pills worked O.K. the very first night. I slept nearly 7 hrs. straight thru & I called the doctor & told them they were fine. Looking back, I figured I was just so worn out, that it didn̓t take very much. Also, perhaps I have built up an immunity to them?

Well. I think I may just try that old recliner & give this warm milk a chance to kick[?] it.

3:40 A.M. – Well, it did. Had me another nice little cat nap. That will have to do for awhile though, because I̓ve got the coffee brewing now. I̓ll probably sneak in another about mid-morning. That̓s about the time that Nana goes to exercise class. Yep, you heard that right! I mean like: Hup! Hup! Hup! Poke em out now girls. I sed Poke em out!! Oh well, gives her something to do and it might even do her a little good!

Now, for the “second joke” — I̓m going to try my hand at a little writing. I mean like books, man! Good one, huh? In explanation Gregg, I must tell you that just a few nights ago (just before I got the blessed slpg. pills) I was really down to finding a shell for the gun. I was interested in absolutely nothing. Then after a first night̓s rest in nearly 2 weeks (and probably, still somewhat doped up) I awoke with this revelation. I hadn̓t been so emotionally elated & excited in years! So, you see, I̓ve got to do it, even if nothing ever comes of it, just to maintain my sanity! Not that it carries much weight, but it was suggested back in my high school days that I should pursue a livelyhood in this field. Of course, I was also offered financial assistance in attending medical school to become a surgeon. Boy, there̓s just no way I could ever have done that!

At present, you are one of four people (including myself) that is aware of this and I desire to keep it this way for some time. at least, until I get somewhat of a handle on what I̓m doing, I don̓t want to be providing stupid answers to stupid questions. Ha! First of all I must tell you it will be something strongly unconventional. I have no desire to beat heads with the millions of literary geniuses that now exist. I just want to out-sell them. Ha! I definitely have some different ideas. One of them has got to work! I just hope that I have enough time left to pursue just the ideas I have already. Gregg, may I have your moral support and maybe even some of your respected advise?  You may become impatient with me, because none of my plans are even close to perfected yet. But, since I have very little to do otherwise; I shall be able to devote unending hours to it. I̓m sure there̓ll be unending “re-dos”!  I̓ve already started compiling some “just raw materials.” Out of this I will decide just what I want to use, in what order, etc. Like I say, this may not be a conventional reccommended way to start, but it̓s my way. When I was quite young, I saw an old “talkie” movie showing a flock of sheep following their leader over a suicide cliff. This reminds me of americans and is just not to my liking! Take care and please be in contact.

Love,
Dad.

P.S. Will try to call you when we get to town.

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